A matter of perspective
Text: Psalm 139:1-5
Where does your sense of worthiness come from? Do you look for it in your closet, your make up bag, the salon? Is it possible our sense of love, connection and acceptance originate from a deeper, more authentically pure place? A naturally beautiful place? One that doesn’t need to be all done up from your perfect haircut all the way down to your pretty pedicured toes… is this possible?
So let’s start in Psalm 139 verses one through five. We will really dig deeper into this whole chapter as we continue our study, but for today lets set our foundation. I absolutely love this entire chapter. It has played a large role in my personal quest of worthiness. Starting with verse one the Psalmist acknowledges his intimate relationship between himself and God. A relationship built on acceptance. God knows everything about us. This knowledge is all inclusive. From His thoughts and desires all the way down to His every action and spoken word. I don’t know about you but that is oddly comforting and equally frightening at same time.
I love knowing that the things in my life are of no surprise to God. With that being said, I am no perfect angel. All my flaws and daily failures are also known to him. Eeekkk! In spite of those facts, God is still actively pursuing us. He knows every secret and He uses this knowledge to help guide and protect us in our journey of sanctification. Maybe it’s just me, but the thought of just how much he knows about me leaves me with a very vulnerable feeling. It’s not always a comforting feeling to be so open and bear, before people much less our Heavenly Father. Yet he accepts us just as we are; true, unconditional acceptance.
I fully believe I’m not alone in feeling I have to prove I am worthy to be a part of; social, economic, and/or family circles. We feel like we have to be what everyone else expects from us, or we feel disconnected and not good enough to participate. Our voice is stifled by the fear of being rejected at our core. Everyone falls into one of two groups. You are either ahead of the game (and should be teaching the rest of us) and have a healthy sense of deserving love, belonging and worthy of connection, or you don’t. Perhaps the lack thereof is from hearing you’re not worth anything from a parent, teacher, aunt, or grandparent. Perhaps nothing you’ve ever done was ever good enough . So, then you have naturally come to believe the lie straight from Satan. Which is easy to do. Dear sister I hope you’ll join me as we begin to unpack the concept of our worthiness.