Strength to turn away from sin
Text: Psalms 1:1-3
During our times of disappointment it can be easy to fall into sin. I say this plainly because it has happened to me many times. It is so easy to let our guard down when we are in a trial or faced with upsetting circumstances. And because of this, it is easy to slip into the trap of sin. This is where God does not want you and exactly where the devil gets his hold of you and pulls you in.
A few days back I told you of the story of my miscarriage. What I left out was where all that anger blew up. Several weeks after my miscarriage I left the house flustered and upset. I drove down the street, tears filled my eyes, I had no real destination. My heart ached with loss and with the thought that my husband didn’t really understand and I selfishly thought, no one could ever understand my pain.
As I drove, I passed a bus stop on my left. Standing alone waiting for a bus was a VERY pregnant woman smoking a cigarette. That was my end! I beat my fists against the steering wheel and screamed, “You will give her a baby but you will take mine?!” I was in such a rage and overcome with tears that I had to pull over into the parking lot of a church I was passing by. As I sat in the parking lot weeping, I remember staring at the cross on the sign of the building. I wanted answers. I wanted clarity. I wanted my baby to be growing in my tummy. I want. I want. I want.
Notice a patten here? My loss, as devastating as it was and as understanding as anybody can be of my emotional rollercoaster, turned into sin in my life as I let what I wanted become more important than what God had planned for me. I am so glad that God brought me to that moment where I finally fessed up to what I was holding on to, my own desires.
You see, I had no idea what God had in store for my life in the future. I could only see the right now. We have a God who loves us more than we can even imagine. He wants only good things for His children and He asks that we trust His will and His timing. So my friend, please steer clear of that melting pot of sin in your time of discouragement. Keep your eyes on Jesus and don’t allow that sin to take root in your heart.